Not the easiest thing

Breaking up and moving on...

Everyday...

Don't know what to think, what to feel. Relieved that I finally chose to end a chapter of my life that can never find its conclusion. The never was my fault, and maybe some of his. Guilty that I am moving on too quickly. Holding on to your hands too soon. I don't want to be in another lop-sided relationship. I want to give as much as I get and possibly more. But I can't get myself to reciprocate your words and your gestures. I take time to open up in a relationship, maybe that's all there is to it. Or is there something more about my apprehensions that I should understand. I let my head do the thinking in cases where I should let my heart do the feeling. I keep thinking about how I'd fare in my parents expectations, and somehow that hinders me from giving my all, letting me feel all the emotions. It's happened once but I shouldn't go through that again, I've got to give it all and leave the rest to fate...
Accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference.

Nothingness...

I'd give it all, I'd give for you, If anything but I won't give up...