Finally

When I was talking to you yesterday (finally) about my feelings for you, I felt a whole lot better. Like a heavy load had been lifted off my chest. A while after that I went back to being in the same state of mind as before. But now as I write this, I feel like what I ultimately did was right. Telling you that I love you too after all this time and despite knowing the fact that you have moved on wasn't the kindest of things I could have done but still there were a number of things pushing me towards it. It's just that the person you love deserves to know that you do. And I don't want to live with this lie all my life. But I told you everything despite having decided that I don't want to rekindle the relationship (I am certain you feel the same. But despite all this it felt good to know that your feelings for me haven't changed.), and I knew I was being really selfish, but I so needed some peace of mind. And it's starting to feel better. And I do hope it keeps getting better. It's bit strange but now I feel freer than I have ever felt. Just wanted to say, thanks for listening.

When even the good things shake you off balance

Two conversations. Good ones. But I am kind of going to lose sleep over both. I don't know why it happens. Come on. Good things are supposed to make you feel good. Not like this. I am happy for my friend but then why did he have to go to some other place for his Masters. He was supposed to come here. I just get this feeling that I might never see him. And that just doesn't feel good. And yeah talked to her. Decided to keep something to myself. And well she seems more open minded that I thought she was. And that brings me to a huge dilemma but then maybe it's just best to leave the past. Future should be liveable.

Pleasant conversations

Just the other day I was thinking about my friends and how I confided in each of them but about different things. How I was rueing the fact that there was not a single person with whom I could share every aspect of my life. It just made me feel like I am not being a good friend. Well things have changed a bit somewhat. And I couldn't be happier and more content. At least with this aspect of my life. I know I am never satisfied. But keeping that aside, this change came in the strangest and most unexpected way possible. With her telling me she liked the guy that I too liked. He was kind of like my first crush. I may still hold a soft spot for him. But when she said those words, I didn't feel bad. I don't know why. Of them getting together is almost an impossibility. The fact that I just said that proves that maybe I would end up getting hurt if that happened. But I don't think I'd ever feel betrayed in any way given her revelation.
There are still things left unsaid between us. But I know for a fact that I can always tell her when I am ready.

And Superman Returns

Maybe he shouldn't have. Hahaha. I just couldn't get myself to like the movie. It just failed to connect. The way Spiderman did. Or the Batman Begins did. The effects were quite cool. Loved the airplane stunt. But all through I felt like I was watching a comic. Granted it's an action movie, but still unless a flick like that moves you emotionally at one particular point, then it just plain fails. I want my six bucks back.

Reminiscences II

All the times we met for lunch or late lunch or whatever they are supposedly called. I do miss eating out with you. The times we discussed etiquettes and what not. Rushing out of office during the lunch hour with one pretense or another and then rushing back. Waiting for you to come by my workplace in the afterhours. The walks back to my place in the evenings. And your never-ending jokes about how you would climb up to my room in the night. I still remember you saying you are not necessarily a nice guy but you are and will always be nice to me. Yeah you kept that promise almost always.
The memories just come rushing in every time. I so miss you. What I wouldn't do to meet you one more time.

A Quote

'Life is a tragedy for those who feel and a comedy for those who think.'
-Fortune Cookie

That's so unfrivolous for a fortune cookie prediction. Anyways it caught my attention.