The randomness and everything else

Slept through a meeting with my advisor last Wednesday. And now I get back late when I am supposed to finish work for her. I was shirking my responsibilities earlier, but now it's like in your face. Need to cut some slack.
And I want to stop talking to you. Or maybe just want to know what's going on in your mind. I could ask maybe but then I am scared of losing you or whatever remains of this relationship.