unwritten story

not really. have written it down in hopes that i can get over it. i do think i want to get over it. but i feel maybe i don't really want to. i don't want to get over it, i want to move on. and to move on i need another boat. right now am floating in the water, just trying to drown. ironic. anyways i need someone in life. and it's high time i had someone, someone i could find joy with and not have to hide from the world. i never thought my life would be full of tragedies. lost love. unrequited love. and what not. damn it i need someone right now.
seeking one more tragedy to get over the last one. at least one more sense of fulfillment, whether it's built on a heap of lies, i just don't care.