Friday

Was working on my work stuff late minute as usual on Thursday night. Had worked a bit on Thursday afternoon and was feeling good about the things I had managed. Not so much in terms of content, but I knew the presentation would make a difference. Then late night managed to read some powerpoints that was long due. And got an idea for some coding stuff and went to bed feeling really good and looking forward to a good weekend break.
But got up late on Friday and that messed up the things I had left for Friday morning. And then it felt liked doomsday, why did it have to be like every other meeting for me. I had been feeling good about this and then got all messed up. But then I decided to approach it with a positive attitude. Whatever much I had managed I presented and it's a sad thing that content gets hidden within all the glitter of the presentation but then it worked in my favor this time and I am not complaining.
Have been learning the lessons repeatedly and it's high time I stopped screwing things up. I am so through the last minute mini heart attacks :-D.
But one thing I learned, be POSITIVE. Yeah of course, hard work is always there. And yeah the jinx is somewhat broken. I sometimes get this really good feeling about things but somewhere inside there is this fear that I am going to be disappointed, something is going to be messed up somehow. About time I let that stop veering me towards anxiety.